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You trace your steps back to the start. See the clock there slowing. The hindsight’s been the hardest part. Hurts to see you glowing. Cause I remember late September. Your silhouette on blue wallpaper in the hallway. You drew the line and pulled me under, but do you ever stop to wonder about me? All of the things we pulled apart. I let it go, it doesn’t matter. The seasons changed. It broke my heart. But I will always remember you. When we were dancing in the living room. I see it now, who I was back then. So young and hungry. You loved me strong, and you were my friend when the world felt empty. But I remember sentimental sleepless nights, I set the table and just waited. All along I would have given every song I’ve ever written just to spend one day with you. All of the things we pulled apart. I let it go, it doesn’t matter The seasons changed. It broke my heart. But I will always remember you. When we were dancing in the living room. Oh, I will always remember you. When we were dancing in the living room. But when you think of me completely, hope it doesn’t freak you out. And when you love somebody new, I hope you say it out loud. All of the things we pulled apart. I let it go, it doesn’t matter. The seasons changed. It broke my heart. But I will always remember you. When we were dancing in the living room. But I will always remember you. When we were dancing in the living room. Oh, I will remember you. So in love and high on our own fumes. Oh, that’s how I will remember you. You.

Everybody’s going crazy. See them walking down the street. And I feel like a deer in headlights when I turn on the TV. I keep wandering 'round my living room just wondering how we’re gonna survive. See the light stream in the window. Call my mother on the phone. Said there’s talking in the kitchen of selling my childhood home. And everywhere I look around, it seems we’re always saying goodbye. And I don’t know just what to do. I’m fine, but feel I'm breaking through. My world’s a honey shade of blue. I’m crying. Wish I wasn’t hanging on, but it was coming all along. It was coming all along. I know I might sound existential if this is the first time that we meet. But I swear there’s some potential in the actuality. And I’m trying to be brave these days, but oh I’ve still got Nora on the phone. And she’s saying hold your temper. “Hey there Maggie, slow your roll. I know that you still hate him for the way he hurt you back at school.” And though it’s dark out in the distance, it’s looking like there might be a new soul. And I don’t know just what to do. I’m fine, but feel I’m breaking through. My world’s a honey shade of blue. I’m crying. Wish I wasn’t hanging on, but I know it won’t last for long. So fast. It’s fading out of view. I’m flying. Long past 22. So high. Can’t find the moment it went wrong. But it was coming all along. I’m fine, but feel I’m breaking through. (It was coming all along.) My world a honey shade of blue. (It was coming all along.) And I know it won’t last for long. It was coming all along. But it was coming all along.

On the run. Not enough. Oh, and it’s so cold. When I give up, I feel love. Right down to my toes. And I see stars that never ever ever looked this bright to me. Feeling on your skin never felt this right to me. Holy roller, come on baby, someone hold me down. I’m drunk, but not drinking. Lost in wishful thinking. 'round and 'round and 'round it goes. I can hear them whispering. Call, but I’m not listening. Oh, and where it goes is somewhere no one knows. Time is up. You’ve had your fun. Oh, but it’s so loud. You hold your tongue, but one by one, the words slip out your mouth. And I see stars that never ever ever looked this bright to me. Feeling on your skin never felt this right to me. Holy roller, come on baby, someone hold me down. I’m drunk, but not drinking. Lost in wishful thinking. 'round and 'round and 'round and 'round and 'round it goes. I can hear them whispering. Call, but I’m not listening. Oh, and where it goes is somewhere no one knows. And if you meet me halfway, I’ll drive all night. Nobody’s gonna tell me it’s not right. You can’t take it away. It goes on and on and on and on, and on and on and on. I’m drunk, not drinking. Lost in wishful thinking. 'round and 'round and 'round and 'round and 'round it goes. I can hear them whispering. Call, but I’m not listening. Oh, and where it goes is somewhere no one knows. Oh and where it goes is somewhere no one knows.

So you think you’re on the right track. Cruising on the bridge in your gray Cadillac. You think it’s easy. Walking on the water like there’s stepping stones. But when every little thing’s up for taking, oh, it makes me want to sing. My heart’s breaking. Oh, there ain’t no diamond ring you could buy me to take me home. Oh, cause I’m so sick of dreaming. Oh, and I’m all that I’m needing. Yeah yeah yeah yeah. Ooh, you think you’ve seen it all. Walkin' 'round the city with the sun at your back. You think you’re so cool 'cause everybody knows you. But what’s so good about that? When every little thing’s up for taking, oh it makes me wanna sing. My heart’s breaking. Oh, there ain’t no diamond ring you could buy me to take me home. Oh, cause I’m so sick of dreaming. Oh, and I’m all that I’m needing. If you think that life without me’s like a heart attack, take a long look in the mirror and be good with that. Oh, cause I’m so sick of dreaming. Yeah yeah yeah. So he calls me up 15 minutes before the reservation and says he’s got Knicks tickets instead. I mean, I was at the restaurant! So I took the steaks to go, I had two martinis at the bar, and went to meet my friends down the street. I mean, what a loser! (I’m so sick of dreaming.) And by the way, the Knicks lost. Oh and I—I’m so sick of dreaming. And I’m all that I’m needing. If you think that life without me’s like a heart attack, take a long look in the mirror and be good with that. Oh, 'cause I’m so sick of dreaming. Yeah yeah yeah yeah.

One of these days, I’m gonna wake up smiling. One of these days, I’m gonna cry. When all of the years start to blend in together, I watch ‘em disappear in your eyes. Remember the days we used to drive upstate? Singing indie rock songs in the car. You wore your fresh leather. And blamed it on the weather for being the reason you were so difficult. But so invincible. Irresistible, but I loved you still. You kept my secrets and stole my weaknesses. In your white t-shirt, but I couldn’t fill the shoes you laid down for me, from the girls that came before. I was all the way in. You were halfway out the door. Oh I was an animal making my way up the hill. And you were going in for the kill. And you were going in for the kill. One of these days I’m gonna wake up fresh and wipe all the past from my eyes. Curl up next to you in tall grass, sunshine. And wrap my body’s shape 'round your side. Remember the days we used to ideate about what we would do all our lives? I’d be a singer and an old bourbon drinker. Oh, and we’d have a band on the side. I know I was so difficult, but so invincible. Irresistible, but you loved me still. I kept your secrets and stole your weaknesses. In your white t-shirt, but you couldn’t fill the shoes I laid down for you. From the guys that came before. You were all the way in. I was halfway out the door. Oh, you were an animal making your way up the hill. And I was going in for the kill. Oh, all of our lives. Was it worth it? Oh, or were we just wasting time? 'cause we were hurting. But I know that you know that I know you best. And I know that we both could forget all the rest. If we both can admit that we both were so difficult, but so invincible. Irresistible, but I loved you still. You kept my secrets and stole my weaknesses. In your white t-shirt, but I couldn’t fill the shoes you laid down for me. From the ones that came before. I was all the way in. You were halfway out the door. Oh I was an animal making my way up the hill. And you were going in for the kill. Oh, I was going in for the kill. Oh, we were going in for the kill.

Standing on the edge of our old corner on Broadway. I passed a couple kids, and oh it felt like yesterday that we were holding hands and walking right down 15th Street. The wind was in my hair, and you had that red flush in your cheek. And I know you find it funny ooh, but I can’t seem to let it go. I keep wishing there was something to do. Oh, don’t you? But if now was then, I would get out of my head. I would touch your chest. I would break the bed. I would say the things that I never said. Oh the things I’d do, oh, if now was then. But you can’t take it back. Oh, you can’t take it back. When Anna threw that party, I remember seeing you. It’d been a couple years, and we locked eyes across the room. You were with your new girl. Oh, and I had brought a guy that I knew back in high school, but was so empty inside. I know you find it funny ooh, but I can’t seem to let it go. I leep wishing there was something to do, oh, don’t you? 'cause if now was then, I would get out of my head. I would touch your chest. I would break the bed. I would say the things that I never said. Oh the things I would do, oh, if now was then. But you can’t take it back. Oh, but you can't take it back. Ooh, but you can’t take it back. No, you can’t take it back. I’d take it back, but I can’t. I’m sorry. I know it hurts, but you shouldn’t worry. I’d take it back, but I can’t. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’d take it back, but I can't. I’m sorry. I know it hurts, but you shouldn’t worry. I’d take it back, but I can’t. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

Darling, my dear. I know we’ve had a good thing going. Darling, I fear it’s time for us to do some growing. And how far do you bend before you break it all away? And how long can you wait? 'cause love is not a debt you pay. It’s not something you can give away. Love is not the final straw. But it’s always a reason to risk it all. Oh, it’s true. At least the way that I loved you. Oh, and I still do. For all of the times we knew that there was something coming. Well darling, my dear. I’m worried that we’re both just running now. And how far can you bend before you break it all someday? And how long can you wait? 'cause love is not a debt you pay. It’s not something you can give away. Love is not the final straw. But it’s always a reason to risk it all. Oh, it’s true. At least the way that I loved you. That I loved you. That I loved you. Oh, and I still do.

Started back a year ago. And oh, my eyes were closed and younger. You understated, overrated. You were making space for your hunger. You celebrated all your ways. Oh, I should’ve heard the thunder. But all that time you dedicated? It was just a waste of your anger. And it goes on and on and on. When you hear this song, and it plays on and on and on and on all along. When you realize the things that you lack. Better think twice before calling me back. Cause it goes on and on and on. On and on and on. On and on and on. On and on and on. One day you’ll be looking back and maybe wish that you were kinder. But ain’t it always just the truth, oh, that hindsight makes you softer? I played it back a million times and always wish that I was wiser. But it’ll be coming back to bite you like a dog. You know you better run for cover. 'cause it goes on and on and on. When you hear this song, and it plays on and on and on. And on all along. When you realize the things that you lack. Better think twice ‘fore calling me back. Cause it goes on and on and on. On and on and on. 'ause it goes on and on and on when you hear this song. And it plays on and on and on and on all along. When you realize the things that you lack . Better think twice ‘fore calling me back. Cause it goes on and on and on. On and on and on. Yeah, you better run.

Smooth out the lines on my face in the mirror and think about where I’m gonna go. Put on my red lipstick like a hero and swallow the fear down my throat. There’s old music playing. I can hear my friends saying there’s 10 seconds 'til it's time to go. So I put on those old heeled boots. They’ve been waiting at the bottom of the closet alone. I can’t behave, but I don’t want to be alone. But you kept me waiting, now I’m never ever going home. Never going home. Never going home. Walk in and the world starts turning. I can't help looking for you at the bar. Catch a glimpse of someone with kind eyes dancing, whose jacket’s the same color as the seats in your car. There’s old music playing
I can hear my friends saying “you know it’s time to go, go, go, go, go.” Can you jump off the cliff? I know that you can handle it, and time’s got a way of letting you know. I can’t behave, but I don’t want to be alone. But you kept me waiting, now I’m never ever going home Never going — I can’t believe that you’d rather be on your own. But you kept me waiting, now I’m never ever going home never going home. Never going home. Never going home. Alright. We get to talking, but those lips aren’t your lips. We lean together, those hips aren’t your hips. When I’m out in the back and I’m catching my breath. I close my eyes to forget all the rest oh—I can’t behave, but I don’t want to be alone, no. You kept me waiting, now I’m never ever going home. Never going — I can’t believe that you’d rather be on your own. But you kept me waiting, now I’m never ever going home. Never going home. I’m never ever going home. Never going home. I’m never ever going home. Never going home.

All the same. Day by day. And suddenly, you look around and find the ground. Still feeling like it’s yesterday. The lights are on and nothing’s wrong. But still, you can’t remember when you played the game. Oh, all the same. So it goes. Time moves slow. Until one day you wake up and you realize that what you see is what you know. And still, you wish for one more kiss. A moment’s bliss from a lover you’ve always known. So it goes. Won’t you wait one more day? Give me the chance to wake up in a full romance. Just knowing that you chose to stay. If only just to keep on hoping, maybe even knowing there’s another way, oh. Won’t you wait?

My friend Sally’s getting married and to me that sounds so scary. I’m still trying to clean up my side of the street. Can’t imagine what would happen cause I’m still acting out of habit. Hoping dirty words just don’t escape my teeth. Oh and every time I try just a little. Promise that I’ll meet in the middle. I always find my way back to my feet. So close the door and change the channel. Give me something I can handle. A good lover or someone that’s nice to me. Take my money, wreck my Sundays. Love me til your next somebody. Oh but promise me that when it’s time to leave, don’t forget me. Don’t forget me. My friend Molly’s got a guy she swears to god could be her family. Says he’s got the greenest eyes you’ve ever seen. But it’s crazy all the days she spends just following him to parties. She seems happy oh but that’s not love to me. Oh but every time I try just a little. Promise that I’ll meet in the middle. I always my find my way back to my feet. So close the door and change the channel. Give me something I can handle. A good lover or someone that’s nice to me. Take my money, wreck my Sundays. Love me til your next somebody. Oh and promise me that when it’s time to leave, don’t forget me. Don’t forget me. And maybe I’m dead wrong. Maybe I was bitter from the winter all along. Maybe there’s a stranger standing, holding out for love, just waiting on the next street. Just for me. Oh just for me. So close the door and change the channel. Give me something I can handle. A good lover or someone that’s nice to me. Take my money, wreck my Sundays. Love me til your next somebody. Oh but promise me that when it’s time to leave. Oh won’t you promise me that when it’s time to leave, don’t forget me. Don’t forget me.